That was the first thing I thought when Diva (the Naughty Neighbors mom) dropped of the NN. She asked if I would watch the NN until 9:30 tonight so she could go out with her friend for some margaritas. She looks at me right before she walked out the door and said, "Do you know how long it's been since I've went out on a Thursday night?" I didn't respond. I wanted to look at her and say ooohhh about a month ago when I watched her for you. Instead I just smiled and said have fun.
Now she is gone off to have fun and I am left wondering... when do I get to have fun? I spend every moment of everyday taking care of my family. I am not known as Cassandra, I am only known as Lee's wife and Angel and Renee's mom. I do not go out, my only friend is Christina and she works and goes to school, so there is little room left for me. Shit... even my husband gets to go out. For instance he was off work at exactly 6:55, when he called me and said that he was going to the bar tonight. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! I want to go out. I want time without children! I want to know that guys will still look at me, and that I can actually be me without my children or husband.
I need a break! I need time for me! I NEED TO FEEL LIKE ME AGAIN!!!!!!!
Why am I soo nice to everyone? All they do is use me as a door mat. Everyone especially my husband takes me for granted.
A thank you would be nice.
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I know the feeling, I have hardly ever been away from my son! I have gone to the movies without him 3 time's in 3 years,
and he's spent 5 nights with people, but yet when he was getting court ordered visits with his birthmom I would count down the hours until he came home, I was lost without him!
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