Life is the typical revolving door around here. Angel has school, Lee has work, and I have to run the house so they can go to work and school. I have been dedicating my life to my family. I do everything *within reason* I can for them. I don't just clock out and go home like most employees. I do not get paid salary or hourly, I do not get sick days, vacation time, retirement, holidays, lunch breaks or any of those things. I do get endless love, hugs, kisses and smiles. Sometimes those are enough to make it all worth it, but then again sometimes, I still need time for me. I can't keep this up for much longer before I blow a gasket!
This morning...
Lee and I argued. *Yes, I started it... I think*
I woke this morning to the blaring alarm clock and Lee grabbing the sheets and yanking them off me. *I hate that* I can't stand it when someone just rips the sheets away from me. I get up *now in a pissy mood* and amazingly coffee was made already! *He never does that* He starts to make his lunch for work and bitch at me about the location of the mayonnaise in the fridge. *Really? The fucking mayo? That's what you want to complain about?* So I look at him and of course had something smart ass to say.... "Look, if I'm the one doing the cooking and cleaning, then you are the one who deals with where I put the mayo!" He then tries to tell me where to put the mayo. I was so friggin irritated! I didn't even want to look at him. Of course he eggs on the argument, and we went back and fourth for a while.
Long story short I don't know which one I'm not happy with right now; my marriage or my inability to find an adequate job. The only source of happiness I have right now is my children. I love them but I need something else with adult interaction.
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